#boys are whatever #psh who needs them? #not me #thats for sure #friends #friendship
#emotion #screaming #frustration #friends #unfair #life #exs #exboyfriends
I don’t think happiness is the point anymore. I’m so aware when I’m happy. I feel it so strongly because it’s so different from my usual state of being. I think it’s overrated. Happiness. We have the right to pursue it but not to actually be it. Because it doesn’t exist. I’d rather be self-satisfied. I don’t think happiness makes you feel self-satisfied. Liberation makes me feel self-satisfied.
When do I think I’m happy? When I’m with friends? In a relationship? Clearly neither of those are really true. Both require me to conform in some way. How do I want to be perceived? How am I being perceived? I don’t want to have to answer to anyone or censor myself. Besides both situations involve people. Who cannot be trusted. People certainly do not make me feel self-satisfied.
I feel the greatest sense of liberation when I’m alone. Driving. With the music so loud I can’t hear myself think. I’m free do whatever I want.
And I am satisfied.
Which I think is the point.
#life #happiness #satisfaction #selfsatisfaction #friends #heartbreak #heartache #themeaningoflife
Life is strange and wonderful and this is how I see it
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