#cats  #kittens  #baby cats  #friends  #cat friends  #friends  #bffs  #cat bffs  

#boys are whatever  #psh who needs them?  #not me  #thats for sure  #friends  #friendship  

#i love you man  #Paul Rudd  #friends  #i need them  #foreveralone  

sometimes 

i 

feel 

like 

SCREAMING. 

#emotion  #screaming  #frustration  #friends  #unfair  #life  #exs  #exboyfriends  

Life.

I don’t think happiness is the point anymore. I’m so aware when I’m happy. I feel it so strongly because it’s so different from my usual state of being. I think it’s overrated. Happiness. We have the right to pursue it but not to actually be it. Because it doesn’t exist. I’d rather be self-satisfied. I don’t think happiness makes you feel self-satisfied. Liberation makes me feel self-satisfied. 

When do I think I’m happy? When I’m with friends? In a relationship? Clearly neither of those are really true. Both require me to conform in some way. How do I want to be perceived? How am I being perceived? I don’t want to have to answer to anyone or censor myself. Besides both situations involve people. Who cannot be trusted. People certainly do not make me feel self-satisfied. 

I feel the greatest sense of liberation when I’m alone. Driving. With the music so loud I can’t hear myself think. I’m free do whatever I want.

And I am satisfied.  

Which I think is the point. 

#life  #happiness  #satisfaction  #selfsatisfaction  #friends  #heartbreak  #heartache  #themeaningoflife